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I have been studying and using energy healing for about 15 years. I use it in my coaching to help others effectively release emotional upset & self heal emotional and physical issues.

I thought I would share a little about me and how I became an energy healer using some of the most comprehensive methods of energy healing available in the World today.

I am not what you would call a “realist”, the word “spiritualist” comes to mind, although I giggle, because I am not sure that is a real word (I have been known for making up words all my life). I don’t look at the World and take it at face value. I feel something deeper, and have always experienced the World by “feeling” it rather than observing.

I have always felt for people and animals and all of life differently than those I was surrounded by and was told I was “too sensitive”. So, I took that as a bad thing, and tried to be harder, which is against my general nature and did not work for me. I have also always been highly intuitive and as far back as I can recall I have been a healer of hearts, always helping others feel better wherever I went. I can’t count how many times others told me they just felt better being around me. But, in many cases I would take in others energy & trauma in order to help them heal and feel better, and it was toxic for me (which I didn’t realize until I was an adult). Also, it doesn’t work. It is not anyone else’s responsibility to “take on” someone else’s issues in order to heal them nor can you.

I experienced sexual trauma as a child around age 6-8, and repeatedly again as a teen and to compact it, I was also raised in a home with a parent who suffered with severe PTSD, deep depression, mood swings, many negative emotions, self sabotage, rage & anger issues along with serious health (2nd hand PTSD). We moved frequently and barely had enough money for necessities most of the time.

Even though it was natural for me to be a healer, I didn’t realize that it was necessary & healthier for me to heal and become stronger so that I could help others in the best way possible and not receive their emotional wounds. I would have to address my own heavy traumas that needed healing and were being ignored. I feel that experiencing some of the things that have occurred in my life, have allowed me to be an even better coach/healer that I might have been otherwise, with Unconditional Love and acceptance. My heart is open to helping others heal without judgement and my intention is to help others feel safe while working together.

“I actually found energy healing while I was powerfully asking the Universe for something that I could use to help someone in my life that is very close to me, in order to help them find inner peace and recover from severe PTSD and depression and also lead them to heal from some severe health issues. I also ended up finding that I, too needed it much more than I realized or was willing to acknowledge.”

Eventually, I recognized that if you ignore your own healing long enough, it keeps rearing its ugly head and in time, you just can’t ignore what is going on, physical symptoms, deep depression, self worth issues, bouts of crying days at a time, hiding so no one would see or know what I was experiencing, along with severe self loathing and self destructive patterns that follow you, wondering why you are even here. At some point, you have to address the demons and begin your own self healing.

For me, it was a bit of a scary process when I began to shine a light on the things that broke me down, the things I allowed to torture me for so long. I would have to share these things that I never talked about before with some of the people closest to me in my life. What if they didn’t understand? What if they looked at me differently? What if they walked away when they found out my story and what I experienced that made me who I am? What if they responded un-caring and disregarded my feelings and fears?

I also recognized that it was scary to see myself as healed and self empowered, letting go of being a “victim”. Who would I be without all this baggage and fear? I had been this way most of my life. Some of my old patters actually benefited me in some way up til that point. Who would I be without all this self hatred weighing me down? Could I actually be happy, is there such a thing? Could I actually heal for real? What would others think if I was not who they were used to me being? Am I strong enough to speak up for myself instead of cowering out of fear of “upsetting the apple cart”? At different times over the years, when I actually tried to stand up for myself and speak my truth, I have been called a bitch, because I was not giving in to what made others happy but instead made me scared, unsafe, feel terror, miserable or really uncomfortable. I didn’t know how to say “no” to others or even myself. I found through my own self healing that I believed deep down that I deserved to suffer and deserved to be sick.

It was all too dark, and I pleaded with the Universe for healing. It was either I did the work, or I wouldn’t want to live like this any longer. The pain was not worth it.

Using the Comprehensive Energy Healing that I learned, I began peeling back layers of trauma and releasing sorrow, guilt, shame, self hatred, terror and fear. I began to address the beliefs that I was unworthy, I deserved to suffer, that others are unsafe and harm me. I began to identify and release unconscious intentions to stay sick. I began healing specific trauma fields. And, I constantly worked at shifting my mindset.

I began to feel the deep depression and despair beginning to lift. I began to feel hope. I began actually liking “me” and who I was despite what others might think about me. I began taking care of myself differently, realizing that I am worth taking time for. I am worth honoring “me”. I began peeling back the layers of lies that were covering up my authentic self. In order to keep peace and avoid confrontation, I had been who everyone else expected me to be or wanted me to be in many cases.

At first, it was difficult to be different around certain people who were close to me, as I began behaving differently, with more self awareness and responding differently to their behavior. I was met with opposition sometimes and found that I had to explain my behavior to them when I didn’t react the way they wanted me to, like I might have in the past. Deep inside, I didn’t feel that I owed anyone an explanation. I had the right to be stronger, to heal, to be authentic and not just allow others to harm me. I found that I had many triggers.

Through my never ending journey into my authentic self, I began having moments of self appreciation and Joy. Those moments lasted longer and I began desiring more and more happiness. It was addicting actually! I realized this was better than all the suffering. I began to realize that it was OK to heal. I began realizing that I was worth it. I began realizing that if others didn’t understand or walked away, I would be OK, because I deserve to live happy. I now choose to have people close to me that support my healing and Optimal Health and I deserve that.

I also experienced what you would call “Universal Love” for everyone and everything which has completely shifted my experience in the World and I experience more. I have experienced instant “miracle” healing which has allowed me to recognize that literally anything is possible without exception. I don’t view the World or Universe at “face value”. I recognize there is something much deeper that our eyes don’t see. Much more than we allow our physical senses to experience in this physical realm we call Earth.

It is my intention to help others in their own self healing journey through coaching and sharing this Comprehensive Energy Healing that has been so powerful in my life and share other methods I have picked up along the way to find more inner peace and experience deeper spiritual connection and Universal Love.

If you are ready to begin your self healing journey, I can help. Visit https://truehealingsource.com to find out more about scheduling a coaching session or click on the SELF HELP tab for some powerful FREE self healing resources.

*PLEASE NOTE: I am not a licensed healthcare provider, counselor or therapist. I offer my services as a self-help educator and coach to natural wellness and positive living guide. I do not diagnose or treat illness, disease, or psychological problems. eCoaching Sessions and energy healing are not a substitute for medical advice, therapy or other counseling from a medical professional. True Healing Source offers an alternative method that is considered complimentary to other healing methods and can been used to enhance other traditional healing methods. If you are experiencing a significant issue, are in distress or significant pain, please connect with the appropriate professional service such as a licensed doctor. By choosing this eCoaching Service, you agree to be 100% fully responsible for your health and well-being physically and emotionally. You release all responsibility and liability from True Healing Source and it’s affiliates. You take 100% full responsibility for you self-healing and health.