Hi beautiful souls! Have you ever felt like you don’t fit in? Like this world was not meant for you? Do you often feel overwhelmed by other people’s energy? Do you have trouble setting boundaries, saying, “no”, or distinguishing where others end and you begin? I’ve been there and with a some work and self-healing or help you can shift into more self-worth and acceptance and begin feeling more harmonious in yourself with more peace and clarity feeling like life is supporting you instead of against you.

I am a highly sensitive empath and high masking autistic female, I’ve also heard it called “high functioning”. I tend to be on somewhat of the severe end of the “typical” traits you may read about and even some others that I haven’t yet been able to identify belonging to a specific “label”. That is OK, because I am not big on labels to begin with and everyone presents differently, My focus instead is finding a better understanding of my authentic self without the mask I have carried my whole life and discover better skills to experience the world in more harmony and peace for me and maybe other highly sensitive empaths and autistic females will be inspired to shed the mask and discover self-love and appreciation of their unique talents and abilities and live in more harmony and inner peace, too.

I have spent the better part of my adult life seeking answers as to why I am the way I am and why I simply have never felt that I fit in this world in so many ways. I have always felt something was “wrong” with me and have deeply struggled with self-worth most of my life. I have other family members (immediate and extended family) that also display these traits and find it challenging to maneuver through the complexities of daily life with such sensitivities. I have spent many years studying, getting certifications in alternative healing and navigating self-healing to help “heal” people I love and initially to “fix” what I thought was wrong with me and be like everyone else. This did not work as my core natural traits were always there and I was working so hard on the outside to play the role I wasn’t cast to play and be like others. I was also brought up by people who who were (admittedly) “perfectionists” in their own right and I have strived my whole life to be perfect for them others close to me while feeling like a complete and utter failure at everything along the way. I always felt I could not be perfect enough to receive their approval. My work ended up transitioning into discovering self-love, acceptance and appreciation for who I am as I was born to be which is highly sensitive, empathic and autistic among other things. In the process I have worked many years through layers of past trauma (cptsd) and also become more aware of old unhealthy patterns and continue in alignment with my authentic self in more acceptance and self-worth, experience more peace and harmony and work towards a life that is more fulfilling and healthy for me mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually, relationally and financially.

Being a highly sensitive empath and autistic female brings certain challenges and blessings all mixed together.

As a highly sensitive empath and masking autistic female I am more attuned to others feeling and emotions. I don’t simply notice them, I take in others feelings, emotions and even physical symptoms as my own especially if they are very close to me. Learning to set boundaries and say, “no” is one of the most difficult things to learn and practice for a highly sensitive autistic female.

I have frequently experienced knowing ahead of time what someone is going to share with me before they even speak or are in my presence. I sometimes know right before someone calls they will be calling for me or those close to me. I have multiple people very close to me that are alcoholics and/or addicts either in recovery or still using substances. One person in particular used narcotics and fell off the wagon for a short time and has been clean and sober for a while and confided in me that I would somehow call them every time they were about to use their narcotics which would really tick them off and they thought I was tracking them somehow (which we both laugh about now as they know my sensitivities).

Being in the environment with these people on a daily basis or frequent contact is unhealthy for me as I take in others energy, thoughts and feelings and even trauma energy so easily, especially those who are closest to me and I have felt their insanity, pain and rage at times knowing it did not belong to me. I have had to do extensive self-healing, set higher boundaries and distancing for my overall health, especially mentally and emotionally. Even at a distance I still receive their energy and thought patterns at times because they are so close to me, however I am more aware now and have beneficial healing tools and ways of identifying the source and releasing it quickly in order to balance and ground myself in my own energy.

When I was younger and unaware of these intricacies or what HSP or a Highly Sensitive Person, Empath or Autism is, I simply knew I was compassionate, sensitive or empathic or “knew things” and was overly sensitive to other stimuli but thought everyone was. I was not aware of how or why I would feel other people’s “stuff” or how to distinguish what was theirs from mine and I did not know why certain stimuli affected me or felt the way it did. In some cases I would unintentionally take on others hurts and trauma in an attempt to take it from them as if I they could heal (frozen emotions).

And, I did not understand why others weren’t like me, why they weren’t so sensitive or caring. I liked to be alone A LOT (a huge form of self-care that I still practice daily) and I didn’t understand why my parents frequently complained about me spending a lot of alone time in my room with my music or reading. It hurt every time someone told me I was “too sensitive” and I should toughen up or to stop crying as it was/is a natural part of me. Crying for me is a release and a way to process things that are overwhelming or intense and can be both positive and negative things. I cry when I am sad, happy, overwhelmed, frustrated, angry, in love, discontent, taken advantage of or witness any kind injustice or hurt.

I frequently lay awake in thought and question the Universe:

Why didn’t others care as much as I did? Why didn’t others cry? What is wrong with me? Why are others so insensitive or mean all the time? How could someone watch such horrific violence on tv as if it were nothing? How could people abuse animals or each other? Why is the world so mean? What are we here for? How can I make the world a better place? What is my purpose or calling?

I still lay awake at night questioning things about life, healing, contributing to making the world a better place or how much I love the people that I love. And, I pray for the world at large for more healing, peace, harmony and Love. I simply don’t allow myself to take it all on my shoulders like I once did.

I replay conversations over and over again in my head or map out future conversations especially if they may be confrontational. I abhor confrontation and like other HSP’s will do anything to avoid it.

I used to try to heal or fix the suffering of everyone around me (also a trauma response). I simply hate suffering of any kind. I didn’t know I was worthy of anything good when I was younger and those thoughts and feelings still come up to be felt, worked through, released and recognized as false.

For the better part of my life I have been a people-pleaser and I spent masking so many parts of my authentic self in order to make others around me feel comfortable and to fit in. I mirrored behavior, lifestyle and interests and partook in activities that were against my authenticity and way out of my comfort zone. I tried so hard to accommodate certain people I love so they would feel more comfortable with me or love me. I tried so hard not to cry and would hide my sensitivities and raw emotions, playing a different person around them and frequently break-down when I was alone. I had no idea it was a large part of what was causing so many internal conflicts, depression, self-hatred, trauma and exhaustion affecting my health mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually and financially.

And then, I woke up one day after a long depression and desperate attempt to heal my life and my marriage of 30 years and decided I could not do it any longer

And I changed the rules of my life. And, it was the hardest and scariest and most liberating thing I have ever done.

Through my long and continuing journey of self-healing I have come to realize goodness in myself and the uniqueness I am here to be, to share and experience. I continue to discover more self-love and appreciation for my nuances that make me unique in how I experience life and what I am here to offer to the world in a way that only I can offer.

Since I am highly sensitive, empathic and experienced life as a high masking autistic woman and I have certain life experiences, I easily empathize with others like me and can “feel” and understand their emotions. I have the ability to help other highly sensitive empaths and high masking autistic women feel seen, heard, understood and valued, and walk along-side them and guide their attention toward betterment and healing.

My life experience and healing path have taught me to set healthy boundaries, I am less naive and more cautious due to life experience.

Even during times when I was critical and harsh on myself, I have always had a natural ability to inspire others to betterment and see their own unique talents and beauty. Life experience and my natural traits make me excellent at noticing patterns and behavior which enables me to navigate situations and contrast. As I began experiencing self-love and seeing my own uniqueness it created even more love and appreciation of others uniqueness and beauty.

In this post I have shared a small part of who I am as a sensitive, empathic autistic woman and there is so much life experience that has shaped and formed the whole me that I am today. My life is colorful and rich in so many ways. And, I continue the path of expansion and growth in becoming my best version of me in authenticity to the best of my abilities in each moment.

Awakened Empath and HSP

For me simple conversations and life in general and especially change of any kind big or small can feel very intense, over-stimulating and simply overwhelming and yet beautiful all at once.

I have gone through a powerful awakening over the past few years particularly. I have navigated through the grief of initiating divorce after 30 years of marriage, the grief of the sudden loss of my youngest sibling, my brother Brendan which I still have a difficult time believing is real, and the loss and change of other relationships very close to me. My whole life has completely been turned upside down. I have also walked through peri-menopause and I am now navigating through menopause which I am certain contributed to my awakening as my hormones and emotions are so deeply affected in so many ways. And, who could forget the global trauma from the past few years to the human race which was difficult not only personally, but I also felt the trauma of the world at large and it was very intense and is extremely overwhelming and exhausting and I navigate remaining balanced and grounded each day which is challenging even with the multitude of tools I have. And, I am now married to a man whom I love dearly who also has neuro-divergent traits and we do our best to understand each other, show compassion and support each other in our healing and better health individually and as a couple.

As a certified energy healer in multiple modalities, I use energy healing frequently to bring calm to the chaos and ground myself in my own energy and spiritual truth.

I am very protective of my emotional health and energy and space around me in order to keep my sanity and inner peace to the best of my ability. I know what is healthy for me quickly and clearly by the way I feel internally. It is very frustrating to me when others try to step over my boundaries or debate them.

I have several self-care tools and methods I use to feel balanced, ground myself, restore or sustain my energy and self-heal. The top best self-care tools I use are comprehensive energy healing and time alone without taking in others energy as it can be quite taxing emotionally and physically and quite exhausting in general. Saying, “no” and setting and keeping boundaries are also very beneficial once I learned how to actually use them even through the fear of upsetting others, being dismissed or abandoned. Some other tools that are very helpful for me personally especially when I use them regularly and consistently are:

• Meditation or prayer
• Music
• Photos or videos of puppies and other cute animals
• Beautiful nature scenery
• Regular yoga practice or other specific gentle movement
• Dancing
• Thinking of people I love
• Certain scents
• Relaxing with my favorite tee or hot drink
• Morning self-care routine to start my day
• Healthy food choices that are specific to my body/mind/spirit
• Quiet time
• Reading inspiring books or favorite passages
• Clear, honest communication
• Going for a drive
• Vitamins and supplements
• Pause before responding
• Meaningful connections
• Support group for sensitives, empaths and high masking autism
• Sex with my husband and, more

My Own Healing Path Ignites My Passion in Helping You

I have always been passionate about inspiring others to see their own unique beauty and self-worth and my work centers mostly around helping you discover self-love, self-worth and to accept yourself as you are as a highly sensitive person, empath or high masking autistic woman. You were created and born the way you are for a reason. You are worthy of Love, abundance and prosperity and goodness because you exist. The world needs what you offer in contrast with others in this world for balance and beauty and Love.

Recognizing the beauty that you are right now, just as you are brings me joy beyond measure.

My favorite quote is

“Be The Change You Wish to See in the World” by Gandhi

Infinite Blessings, Yvette

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Yvette Ruzmir is a seasoned energy healer with nearly 20 years of dedicated practice in the field. She holds multiple certifications in diverse modalities including tapping therapy, Access Consciousness, Reiki, and more, reflecting a profound commitment to self-healing and holistic healing practices. Her extended study and use of self-healing methods for herself and with others enables her to address energy imbalances and help others begin in personal transformation and self-healing.

Beyond her healing skills, Yvette is a passionate law of attraction and manifesting coach and teacher. She integrates these philosophies into her work, encouraging others to harness their own inner power, amplifying their connection with Source Energy/God and manifest their deepest desires. Her approach is deeply heart-centered, focusing on awakening spiritual empowerment and divine sovereignty in those she supports.

Yvette began her own journey through her dedication to heal herself first and continues this path of self-reflection and healing which ripples out into her relationships and work with others. Her deep desire is to help others realize what is possible through healing generational patterns, old wounds, beliefs and intentions that keep them stuck in unhappiness, dis-ease and feeling hindered, blocked and disconnected from their authentic self and spiritual sovereignty and self-power.

Yvette is enthusiastic about helping others realize their fullest potential and see their own unique beauty by encouraging them to fully embody their authentic selves and express their unique gifts. She lives her life committed to nurturing growth, self-awareness, and spiritual awakening, making her a trusted guide for those seeking to expand their consciousness and live with greater purpose and clarity.