I’m going to share a very deep secret here today…it’s hard to say…it’s hard to admit and hard to talk about openly…
I am almost 40 pounds lighter than I was just 6 months ago! 🥰
Although it’s true…that’s not the big secret… 🤣
The SECRET is that It’s actually very hard for me to share my successes and accomplishments with ANYONE…especially publicly… Weight loss, business success, accomplishments that I am proud of, anything good in my life.
You see, I have been taught all my life that I’m not suppose to talk about me or my accomplishments…or really anything about me at all. I’m suppose to be seen and not heard….or not seen either really. I’m not suppose to feel good about me because that might make someone else feel bad about themselves.
You are Meant to Shine!
I’ve been taught that I’m suppose to only support others accomplishments and lift up others and never talk about myself…EVER… I was told I was being selfish any time I talked about me…EVER…
I was told as a little girl that “it’s not all about you” by the adults in my life who had their own insecurity and other issues to heal.
So, negative comments were made by the adults in my life about others that took pride in themselves or the way they looked and dressed or appeared to have more money. I was told they were egotistical and selfish and even stuck up. I can’t tell you how many times I heard “Who do they think they are?” with a snarky attitude.
What my take away as a little girl was that I wasn’t allowed to shine, that I wasn’t allowed to have needs and that I wasn’t allowed to talk about me whether it was something I was excited about, proud of or needed. I wasn’t allowed to look good or take pride in myself. And, having money was bad too. Of course I didn’t want people to say, “Who does SHE think SHE is?” about me, right??
I was a normal little girl who loved makeup and clothes and high heel shoes and all things beautiful and feminine. I wanted to live in a nice neighborhood, one that was beautiful and safe. I have always wanted a Corvette since I was a little girl. That desire has never gone away. It never will. The new Corvettes are gorgeous! They make me smile from ear to ear! Even today, when certain people hear that I want a new Corvette, they immediately judge me. They make a face and negative comment made to reprimand me. They don’t take into consideration who I am and what I do or how I live, but for wanting such an outlandish, showy, speedy race car. My new Corvette is on the horizon and will be mine. (smirk)
I grew up feeling it was wrong for me to want these things because it would make me stuck up and egotistical or showy. I would somehow get attention, and I am not suppose to get attention.
And even though I have always been very smart, innovative and creative I learned that showing my natural talents, abilities and greatness in anything meant being “reprimanded”, dismissed, purposefully overshadowed and even treated badly and people would make snarky comments about me. Or others just plain took credit for my accomplishments in order to overshadow me.
So, I stopped trying. I stopped owning my successes. I hid in the shadows and lifted others to greatness instead. I stopped being me. I decided it was best to hide my talents and abilities and dim my light and how smart I was.
The truth is that one of my deepest passions and biggest Joys is helping lift others to greatness and shine brightly. It’s one of the things I do best! It makes my heart sing! It is one of the many things I am here on this beautiful Earth to do! I…do…it…well…
I was just uncomfortable with my own greatness or being seen or shining. I felt guilty and selfish, like I was a horrible person for taking the light away from someone else.
I still have people in my life that find ways to try to knock me down to size or shine brighter than me anytime I have an accomplishment. I am not allowed to share my goodness with them. They just don’t like it.
I have people in my life that find ways of letting me know that I’m not suppose to take credit for anything I do.
I’m not talking about people feeling inspired because of my accomplishments so they surpass me. That doesn’t bother me at all! I love it when people succeed and feel amazing about themselves! I’m talking about people who consistently try to out win, out play or out smart me or lose more weight than me to show me up in front of others while trying to put me down in the process while making themselves feel good. They make those comments that seem like they are being nice, but are really rude comments that are sneaky and meant to hurt as if to say, “I am better than you”.
As an adult, I know it is their own self esteem issues now. But, it doesn’t make it OK anymore.
As I was working through some of my own self healing, I uncovered a major block to my personally receiving everything in my life that I choose, including money abundance, great health, weight loss and experiencing my body as physically fit (dare I even say sexy??) and being truly happy. The block was “the need to look bad in order to help others look good or feel better about themselves”. What!!??!!
How the freakin’ heck am I suppose to have anything in my life or accomplish anything great if I feel like I am constantly suppose to be overshadowed by everyone else in the World?
Because at an early age I discovered others didn’t like it when I shined. .
One of my favorite quotes today is by Marianne Williamson… “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” (Marianne Williamson)
My intent is to always help others shine brightly and feel worthy and feel good about themselves. My intent is to help others realize their genius, their greatness and their natural abilities within themselves to succeed and have Joy. We all have it within us to be magnificent!
Let me repeat that: We ALL have it within us to be MAGNIFICENT! And, we are allowed!
What I’m coming to understand and have done a great deal of healing within myself is that I am worthy of that, too. I am worthy of shining and feeling proud of my accomplishments. I am Enough just being me. I am here with my own very unique purpose and talents that I’ve been blessed with the day I was born, no…correct that…the day I was conceived…no…correct that…the day I came into existence as a Being. And I am not to be ashamed of being me and having greatness inside of me that is waiting to be expressed and give glory to the Universe that is the Creator of All. .
You are deeply Loved,
Blessings, Yvette, Healer, Creative Artist & founder @ https://truehealingsource.com